I'm Okay!!

Huhuhu.. Looks like there are some kindergarten element in my blog at this moment.. Hahaha.. I'll change it later.. Keep on reading, okay.. Hehehe..

I was down last two days.. I had a fight with a student.. Not really a 'fight', but we really had the 'mouthing fight'.. I started to yell and he talked back in a threaten voice.. OMG!! The very rude student had really pissed me off and caused me to leave the class which I suppose to have the double period with them.. My body was trembled while controlled the emotion.. I really have to leave the class.. Its not the right time for me to teach coz my heart beat fast, my body trembled, and I got the sudden headache.. It does hurt my feeling.. I never met that kind of student before.. So stubborn + rude + bodoh sombong +ugly etc... So sad to have a student like that.. Apa lah dosa aku dengan cikgu aku dulu sampai aku dapat student macam tu... *sigh*

And later that night, my father said something that hurt my feeling.. Well, he was tried to put up some jokes, but at a very wrong time.. I was so tired at that time because I've just sent some students to hospital on 9.00 p.m and have to wait for ages, over two hours.. Plus, I lost an important document and was so kelam kabut that time.. And that was when my dad said something which had teared up my heart... And I sulked for two days... I rejected his call, refuse to go back home and had a whole-night-cry.. Sob sob..

But today... I am okay!! Positively okay.. I went to the class and act like normal.. Well, looking at positive side, I think the incident gave me a a few advantages. Today, the other students (except for the rude student) gave a very good cooperations and they being so careful when talking to me.. Win-win situation kan? Hahaha.. Layan kan aje la.. For the rude student, I am so tired dealing with him.. So, let him be.. I dont care what he wants to do while I'm teaching.. I dont care what his result will be, I dont care if anything happen to him.. I just dont care!!

And, I've talked to my father as usual.. Off course I've forgave him.. He is a part of my life.. How can I be so mad to him.. He's my father.. Who am I to be so stubborn and ego? He is one of the reasons why I'm still strong until now.. *smile*

I'm planning to survey a few things for my E-day around Kuala Pilah.. Probably, I'll go with my mother.. I'm thinking on a few thing which will cause a 'zero pocket'... Haha.. Need to survey first, and then discuss with Encik B.. The most important thing is, the budget must not over the limit.. So, I've to cancel this thing, that thing and ..........Ah!! Pening!! Kawen je terus kan senang.....